My Thoughts!!!

I am dead.My soul is drifting away From my body, which I have left to decay.I killed myself.Committed suicide It took quite long, actually For me to decide.There doesn’t seem to be a difference -Being alive and being dead I’m still heartbroken, still dismayed,This has, to naught, led. I wanted to die, to end the pain And I have been unsuccessful For the pain always lives, whatever you do So killing yourself, really, is never fruitful.I had a great life, and I threw it away When I had no right to do so A lot of people really loved me And truly wanted to see me grow.I was cherished, by many good souls And troubles they gave me one,And everyone else actually treasured me,I was prized, except for one.But I gave it up, all the love And left them to sit and cry And now I can’t comfort them anymore,However much I try.No one hears me, understands me I speak in silence hoping that someone will see my words, my message hoping to find love, it has arrived so divine I wish for a stronger, better life filled with everlasting touch I dream the future, but hold the past My body is brimmed with so many confusions Am I really here experiencing fullness I must be, the pain is so real the hurt I feel could never be imagined but I will pull through into greatness and destroy whatever faces into me As I struggle I will fight until the end Whenever it may come.