Commit Suicide

i now very fucked up and stress. i dunno wad i really want now? i want u to be by my side few more months to my birthday and i hope that i can be with u and i can be peace to my family. just pray ba haish. my life is like a mess. i feel like a useless and unwanted GUY who nobody wants or love me not even by my family so i come to the decision to commit suicide.This is my life ,I feel the same way i am alone and none cares I have an empty soul my life is not special at all i do have is to become failure but i am still fell like i am alone. Damn...that hurts me!!! melodies start out beautiful. Yes, yes. Omg thats how i feel like a complete mess! i wish some how i could take to some one who understands me., i am no emo in stuff. just need someone to talk to now! and i hate my mum dunno why she wanted like that treat me? why she just can't understand me? why she don't believe me? does she know how sad i feel? i don't think she know!! i am dying soon liao say bye bye to hong wei ba. :( :( :(